Detox

I think I am going threw detox or something,  I have mistakenly smoked a cigarette here and there, ok so lately it been more than that........ It's been a very hard month and a half, with funerals and other real live stuff that can be depressing....  I keep saying I have done it this long not to go back to smoking.  Then I say why bother I am going to get me a pack of cigarettes after _fill in blank_ and then I forget about it........ I realize that hey I made it all day!!

But the last couple of times I quit smoking I went threw times that my taste buds changed... well I went threw this I don't like the taste of most things.... strange I know....

I went threw the only thing that tasted good was fruit last time.  Dried fruit.. specially cherries. With blueberries as a close second.... This time I find myself using the hot sauce bottle a lot... maybe I have been fighting a head cold last month... but ... maybe allergies....


Now I have been cooking more from scratch and thought dang my skills are rusty because most of my food has no taste....... that is one more thing I think is why this is happening.... I don't like the taste of over processed foods...I do however at times (usually at someone else house or dinning out...) have eat them.... Now they have a metal taste or a over powering chemical taste...  Unless it is a candy type add a couple quarters to the machine quick bite... then it is overly sweet... sickly sweet.... but I feel bloated and uncomfortable... but I not eating much because of this and my lack of taste...

I have visited a couple quit smoking site that say the bloating is due to my body's digestive  flora.... ummmm ok, but it just saying give it a while to work it self out.... but really this my  6 months anniversary  well last week was.... so it was the couple of cigarettes I smoked last week? I just getting a little irritated at the lack of enjoyment for food... kinda bums me out..........

Plus how could I gain 6 pounds if I don't eat???  Doesn't seem fair...........